and so i am called the Woman behind Mr. Cheng..

that's what mr. cheng just mentioned in his blog..that was sweet though..to have your bf own a blog and blog such nice stuff once in a blue moon..it definately beats the big bouquet of flowers and the 'way too sweet' chocs..though at times, i kind of wonder why he hasn't given me some flowers for quite a long time..

anyway..a few things kind of happened that led to him saying such stuff..it's a long story so i'll rather not mention too much here..but, through a particular incident in the morning..i finally got to know of how much i meant to mr. cheng..

it has been apparent to myself that i am of a certain level of importance to him..but today's incident just made me realised how important i am compared to many other stuff and people in his life..

i remembered the first time i kind of realised this sort of importance..it was on our first BBQ by the park..he was supposed to meet me at Marine Parade at about 6 or 7 i think..

but his earlier outing with his team mates plus the 'peak hour public transport crowd'..he was pretty late..i waited for near to an hour i think..and when he came..i saw him rushing towards me..

that was when i kind of felt my importance in his life..

i have no idea why..but that particular snapshot stays in my mind like a memorable and meaningful picture..it's like every now and then..the picture would come to my mind..

maybe it's one of those particular pics that never gets deleted away no matter how long..

anyway..mr cheng and i are planning for something..he proposed it and i kind of thought it a 'not bad' idea..we have absolutely no idea how it's gonna work..and we do not really have much concrete plans, yet. we have thought about how happy we would be but not the other factors, yet.

so..it's gonna be a surprise!..i am kind of lazy to plan or do anything now..so i hope mr cheng does it all and i'll just be a follower..

haha..no worries..i ain't pregnant..i ain't gettin' married..i ain't buying any houses..i ain't doing anything related to marital, yet.

come on, have more faith in me leh..i am still a single okies..though not that swinging anymore..

but, i ain't gonna give up my singlehood just yet. there're too much to enjoy.. :D

and recently, i am contemplating on whether i should go rebond my hair, perm it or simply cut it short..

rebonding my hair is bland i know..boring too..but it's kind of safe cause' i know i'll not have a bad hair day and it just feels good to know how good it would definately turn out..

perming it is an 'all along in my mind' kind of thing..the last time i permed it was in poly..it was pretty nice though i do find it hard to style and maintain it..plus it's just difficult to match clothes with permed hair..imagine cute curls with sporty race tank top and board shorts?

alright..maybe it ain't that bad..you know me..i like to exagerrate at times..

and the last option would be cutting it. this is dangerous though. i took 2 longggggggg years to have this length and cutting it all off is like#@$?#?$#!..

but then again, i dun wanna look back at my photos when i am in my 50s and just think it to be so boring with the same old hair style every day, every month and every year..

this is such a dilemma..plus, i would have to factor in the $$..yes, it's after payday no doubt..but i've gotta save $$...so i shouldn't be blowing 200 to 300 bucks on hair, of all things. but then again, it's my money!..i worked hard for it!..

sometimes, i think i am such a miser..and sometimes i think i am such a spendthrift..

but all i want is something that's value for money..nice hair and no burning of pockets!...

tough tough tough...and who knows..after talking so much, i might just go for a trim. is this a problem with women or is it just me?..

and now my broadband is kind of getting on my nerves..it's so damn slowwwwww.....

i ain't getting the speed i am supposed to..maybe it's the sch holidays..you know..sch holidays=kiddos staying at home=surfing the net 24/7=BIG traffic jams online=everyone suffer.

arrgghh..crap..maybe it's time to make payment for that pending bill on my desk.

p/s: i've been readin' the Chicken Soup for the Couples' Soul..and i must say that it's definately worth a read..be it on the way to work..on the way back home..before bed..or even at work..it has taught me a lot about relationships..it's like something that we knew all along but never gotten down to think and act on it..*thumbs up!