Angry and Sick..

i am SO ANGRY with a particular someone that i can't seem to find a good outlet to vent it ALL out!!..

no worries..it's not mr. cheng..it's a friend..that's all i'll say..cause i know somehow rather, if i were to blog about it..the particular post will spread like fire and it will just show how immature i am to put it down in words for the whole wide world to see rather then to tell the 'friend' straight in the face..

reason i did not tell it straight to that person's face was also because that person is a damn stubborn and 'refuse to just admit wrong' kind..so it serves no purpose at all except to let me feel better and to ruin a so-called 'friendship'..

i have reminded mr cheng to remind me to tell him of the story later in the week when i see him...in that way, i'll definately feel better...cause' i know he listens..

arrrggghh...how can there be someone like that???!!!...

alright..i am not gonna curse and swear here..it just spoils my beautiful blog page...

wait till i tell mr cheng..though i am not sure if i can keep it that long..

now i can't help but feel that it's so damn wasted to use the above lines to blog about that person..aarrgghh...how can someone be so damn @#$#%?#"$($$&%&@&$...

sorry but i dun think i am in a mood to blog now..even my dinner appetite is kind of affected too!...

guess i am gonna go compile the pics for my bookie with mr cheng..at least that's something that would cheer me up a BIG lot.

anyway, i ain't feeling that well either..my busy weekend filled with work has finally came to an end..i ain't completely dead..just exhausted and simply 'no mood'..

and i just visited the doc on 1/6/07..cause' i was feeling feverish and there was a lump on the left side of my neck..

rushed to see the doc that nite after work with mr cheng..went to TTSH with an intention to visit the 24hr clinic cause' i was thinking it would be much cheaper than clinics or A&E..

but when i reached there..it was closed...for no particular reason..the board sign says it closes at 2230hrs but it was barely 2200hrs when i reached..no staff or further boards to explain the locked rooms and definately empty clinic..

so 'lan lan siao siao'..i suggested to mr cheng to go to the 24hr clinic at bedok interchange..

at that point of time, i was like struggling already...the on and off fever was getting on my nerves and the lump in the neck was simply adding fire to more fire...

plus, during work that day..my colleagues were all guessing that it's tyroid and some 'dirty blood' that needs to be drained out..i was seriously scared!

mr cheng then suggested going to A&E though..since we were there le and i looked bad..but i insisted 'NO'..

cause TTSH has the worst hospital services and i'll definately end up waiting and waiting and waiting..cause' the nurse will just ask you to wait and wait and wait..cause' my case will never be an urgent case and there would definately be lots of other more important cases that require immediate medical attention..

in the end, i waited and waited and waited for a cab..only for it to come by the TTSH taxi stand 30 mins later..

and so it's all about waiting and waiting and more waiting~

and finally, i reached my doc at about 2300hrs..saw the doc and i must say that it was such a relif knowing that it's a case of infection, causing my 'lymph note' (not sure if that is how you pronouce it..) to swell..

no known reasons though..but it sure scare the hell out of me..the doc gave me some Strong antibotics and anti-swelling pills...and the bill came up to 84 bucks!!!..

my heart was bleeding like crazy..the doc said he has to give me better antibotics cause' it was very swollen..and if it gets worst, i would have to get to the hospital to have more tests..

thank God the medicine are working very well..the swelling has gone down a Big lot..but i kept having this bad headache on the left side of my head..don't know if it was due to the swell..

and i think the stupid swell and headache is making me more paranoid than ever..i even told mr cheng on the phone last nite that i was so afraid that i am gonna die in my sleep..

he told me not to 'think badly' and spent like 20 mins getting me to put down the phone and go to bed..

am i paranoid?...i don't think so though..it's just that the fear was so great last nite and i so wanted mr cheng to fly to my house..

haiz..

i hate being sick..but on the other hand, it ain't a bad thing..cause i've got mr cheng who accompanied me to the doc's and sent me home. i know it might be a simple gesture to some..but to me, it's simply a sweet act by my baby.

desmond once commented on mr cheng's friendster that he is one hell of a good catch..yup, i must agree. but the bad news is that he is already caught by me!..haha..

he's mine~

and he's extra nice cause he promised to subsidise my cab fare last nite..too bad there aren't any cabs in sight..so i took a bus home from work.. :(

**but mr cheng..can i still claim today?..please?

i love u~