i know i've been missing these days..

nothing much actually, just drowning in work stuff and private life. everything i've called familiar is gonna come to an end in just 2 weeks time.

out of the blue, i kind of miss some things that my present job offers. the challenges, the laughter, the fights and everything. it ain't easy to leave, though i have said it many a time that i can't wait to move on. there are some things that i can't take with me and leave. though there are some memories i can take and be gone with, there's still this difference in everything.

i can still keep in touch with my colleagues through calls and emails. maybe even through CSSP events that they organise each year but it's just sad to just leave and say goodbye.

funny though, today when i was on bus, i just kept thinking of the many things i won't be doing anymore. like the same old bus 67 which takes me home every morning and night and the boring chicken burger from Jenny's.

there are some things that people can't leave behind or buy. and such things i have gonna say goodbye to are one of them.

sometimes, i would ponder again and again if this is what i really want? to detach myself and just leave?

but no matter what, i have to move on. like everyone else, to build something on my own.

:D

today was supposed to be an in-house training day but it was cancelled last minute due to the low number of people turning up. it was supposed to be good news since i could go do my own stuff but it turned otherwise when it was announced that the training was postponed and not cancelled.

and the proposed date is on 30th october, which is before i leave. so, i guess i'll still have to attend.

i have kind of loaded all my HK photos to my laptop but i am kind of lazy as well to upload them into blogger. but i'll try. give me some more time.

haha..procrasinator.

and a piece of goodie news, to me.

gonna go get my new hp later..woohoo..no more 'hanging' or 'lagging' anymore. after much considerations, i think E65 is a good deal!!..

stay tuned!




Something Heartfelt from Within..



Just read this off a blog..



"i'll be with your kor today if you want to speak to me, to scold me or whatever.But please, whatever that is intended for me, i hope it's not being channled forcefully to someone else.


I know what you meant, i guess u misunderstood me?Moving on in life does not mean having to be apart...A future with me, is just as possible as a future with me.It's just that things have to end in such a terrible heart wrenching way.

I'm looking a t the future, a very far ahead one, and i'm working towards it. With visible efforts.
I guess it's just not enough, for you to want it. To take a risk, to take a chance once more.

Quote:"i guess this is the time where we individually seek closure. "

i never once seeked closure. It was only because you wanted it, that i had no choice. You are trying to close at your end, but my end remains open, as there was no door there in the first."



Took it from Shiei..

when i first read it, it kind of touched my heart. i did not know who was the owner of the blog but after some reads here and there and by the nick, guess it's kel.

i do not know what really happened but looking through the paragraphs, it seems to be something negative. but i guess i shall not ask anything.


his post just reminded me of someone once so near but yet so far.

i don't know about you guys, but i am a person who can blog better when i overwhelmed with negative emotions, especially in relationships.

blogging is a good way for me to voice out the many things i keep within. blogging is one way i get to say out things that i usually hide from people. blogging is a good way to face up to myself.


it is indeed sad to be blogging about a closure of a relationship. no one likes that in fact.

but i hope things work themselves out in the end. for better or for worst, there's always a reason. we all learn from it and grow from it.



"I have gotta pack my stuff and bid farewell soon,
it's finally a goodbye to a place i once called close and to you whom i once thought so dear

does it hurt you a little?
does it make you wonder why everything was so simple and easy?
does it surprise you when i kept quiet all these while?

i thought about you some hours and numerous minutes back.
i had chances to create some conversations with you but it was fated that we missed each other.
when i last spoke to you, i was glad that you sounded alright and 'normal'
afterall, you had been avoiding me like plague

but i had always wished we could have this one last chance to talk about everything and anything.

just this one last time to talk,
for you to ask about me and where i am heading to.
a short and good conversation."

one last time.




the weather is so hot and humid today!..

though i am in the comfort of my own room, the heat outside is simply unbearable..i can feel it emitting through the walls eh..

initially planned to do something but i guess i'll cancel on the plans..the weather's too much to take..

and everything in Singapore is expensive..yesterday, me and baby went to recee some stuff and it ain't cheap..

well, i am feeling way too hot to blog..gotta catch some TV programs instead..

oh, and someone from CSI is dying. that's sad..

btw, blogger's gone all crazy yet again..i can't change my blog song and do some good amendments without seriously messing up the alighnments and paragraphs..

shit.