alicia's little thot at 1:19 AM
sometimes, we hesitate a lot about life..wished a lot..waited a lot..and think too much.
sometimes, i just feel that i would jolly well drown in my own thoughts..not knowing what they truly are.
i tend to complicate things at times and create walls of denial, defence and pretence. All this supposedly to make things look good, make people feel good and situations good.
but how much do i achieve anway?
i set up a blog to pen down my thoughts in life...good or bad...all of it..so that i could let people see a side of me that they never knew..or that they thought they knew.
but this is kind of failing too. Cause' i seldom do let my negative thoughts in here. Often times, it ends up being channelled to another place.
but then, it ain't that bad an idea too. In that way, everyone is happie. I am happie too. Cause' when i look back on all my past entries, I feel good.
a random thought from some time back..
*i spent time again and again on stupid thoughts that i should never had from the beginning..
i should had never allowed history to repeat itself, so many times.
how foolish am i to think that this is the Difference.
how silly can i get to continuingly fail myself.
i should never had listened to what others have to say, at times.
it complicate matters and disrupt my already straightened thoughts
i should have been more determined.
why on earth did i allow such a foolish mistake to be in place yet again?
time i have spent waiting and guessing.
i should have just shut it all out and leave.
why do i even bother pondering or even hesitating?
it led me to nowhere and it will go to nowhere.
trust me, i know.*
