Rayden..

i don't know how to put across some points to you well..

so i guess this would be a good place..

i dun believe in ever-lasting love..i know it might exist somewhere in the world..but as for me, i do not believe in it..

rather, i believe that love is in different stages..just like playing a game with different stages to conquer..

and in both situations, once you've reached the final stage, that's when it stops.

to me, i dun really believe in loving someone forever..

it is rather complicated but someday i am sure you will agree with me..

a relationship is just like a handful of sand in hand..hold it tightly and it will stay within your palm..but after some time, you would have realised that some grains are slipping through and falling out of your reach..

and when you finally let go..though some grains might be stuck unto your palm, most of it would have fallen to the ground..

simple scenario..simple logic..

hold on tightly to someone and she will start slipping away..

and after some time, when you finally let go, only the memories remain..

simple as it is..

just like the song i was telling you..'Zhong Shang' by Lee Shang Jie..

'wo jin de shou shi zhong yao fang'..

'no matter how tightly you hold onto someone, you would have to let her go someday'..

as i have said, simple matter..simple thoughts..

yes, it is true that you have no reason to love her so much..it's simply a 'love'..

but you have no reason to not let her go..

you can't make someone stay for the sake of yourself..that is selfishness..

especially so when she loves him as much as you love her.

everyone will have a special heart-aching moment with someone..

and no matter how far you go, this special person will always take a no. 1 place..

but her existance is not for you to hang on or to be selfish..

her existance is simply for you to learn about love, to know that letting go is also a form of love and to understand that loving someone is no longer a commitment or responsibility alone, it's a form of everything falling into the right place.

you asked me how would you know if that special someone will indeed be someone whom you will spend your life with..

you will know when you start to love someone without the fear of falling out of love.

no matter what bro..you'll always be my ray of sunshine..dun ever lose that shiny-ness..

love,
alicia.