my paradise in a City...

alicia's little thot at 4:17 PM

there are some things i can never understand and some points i can never bring across to some people..

many times, i have tried telling a friend that some things are beyond efforts and self but he just ain't understanding it..

i hope he reads this though..cause' i just can't really summarise what i have been wanting to tell him...

and now the situation is such that..any negative thing i say would seem to be implying otherwise..

so, he is my ex who's troubled over another gal..fyi..we broke off amicably some long time back..

i hope he gets happiness somehow but this whole thing is kind of getting on me so i have just gotta get it out..

i don't wanna complicate matters but neither do i want him to be foolish..or simply lost in 'that world' he self-created..

the matter is actually a simple one..

what i wanna put across to him is simply the point that..

sometimes you can give your everything..

including your real self to love someone but there ain't a 100% guarantee that things would turn out as you wish..

and yes, no doubt that love can lead to sex but that does not necessary mean that a gal would sleep with you because she loves you much..

sometimes, it's just an emotion thingy...at times, it's just the right mood right place and the 'ok' person..

get over it..sometimes, you can have a person's everything but never her heart..cause' you can never know what she is thinking or even pondering about..

loving someone does not necessarily mean keeping her by your side..

there is a saying that goes, 'you can have a person's body but not her heart'..

why force someone to be with you when you know she somehow rather still loves her ex?

you have a right to love her and wanting to be with her..but she too have a right to love her ex and still wait for him..

not wanting to be with you does not mean hurting you..this is a very childish way of thinking..

people can love each other but not be together..for the most absurd reasons in the world..

does being together with her brings you happiness knowing that you've gotta work extra hard to make her let go off her ex's shadow and put you in that special space instead?

this is damn a lot of hard work...not only on you but her as well..

why not allow her to be on her own and let her decide that you are worth it afterall..

why not consider giving each other time and space to sort things out and just 'let things be on their own'..

i don't know for others, but emotions wise, i can pretty much say that i kind of know what and why..

i have been there..done that..

seeing you is like seeing a replica of myself..

it took me a long time to finally realise that BGR should never be of Top Priority..

there are other more things worth pursuing..

you have spent so much time pursuing BGR and love..why not put this effort and strength into work or some other stuff?

Love is something that takes more than time and efforts..

it is something that cannot be calculated or increased or produced by any means..

it is something that combines time, feelings, location, people...all kinds of factors together..

let it go and you would realise that it gets better day by day..

why let yourself be so sick over Love?

Love ain't about forcing or changing fast..it takes time..and some times, a long time indeed..

by forcing yourself to give in to demands and requests and accomodating yourself to suit another just to get her to be with you is an ultimate failure of yourself..

stop letting emotions get the better side of you..

let logic and good senses take its place instead..

Love is a weird thing indeed..

you can give and provide everything but all it takes is just another person to take it all away..

you can build up a relationship over the years and all it takes is just a 'tired' word to end it all..

there have been people who have met with differences and ended up together cause' they found somthing common in those differences..

but at the same time, there are people who have found common liking in each other but splitted because of the differences they finally see in each other..

i am not discouraging you to give up or anything but all i am trying to say is..take it easy and stop forcing her to love you as much as you love her..

and don't ever expect a guranteed return for every effort you put in..

gals no longer work the same way anymore..

stop treating gals like clothes..

so what if you have been so called 'hurt' before..

i can jolly well tell you that i have been there done that many times..

and been through tougher times than you ever had..

but i still walk through life good and well.

nothing in this world is 'most hurtful' cause' you would always have someone else in the world whose hurt is much more painful than yours..

if you have cried much, there are people who have cried endless..

if you had fallen into a hole, there are people who have fallen into a trap..

if you have loved too much, there are people who have loved infinately..

if you think through all the happenings in life, could you be expecting too much that you forgotten that some things are never touchable?

i still care for you, as an ex. Seeing you being bothered over such matters brings a concern. Stop pushing yourself into the dark tunnel, learn to let it go and walk out of it. And that is when you see the light shining through.