the weather is so damn hot...

i feel so sticky all over...

but anyway...

i had a chat with yanmei today..

we planned some stuff to do..

but it's till in the planning stage..

so can't reveal much..

talking about it..

the idea actually came to my mind while i was in the MRT..

wasn't much a bad idea..

but just that i need some good time and planning and money of course..

for the time being..

let's just call it Project.

hee...

and some bitchy news for today..

i actually became good friends with one of my ex's ex-galfriend..

confusing?

nope..

to put it simple..

we used to be with the same guy...

but he's long gone..

gone as in away la..

he ain't dead..

and back to this gal..

we just kind of hit it off when we started talking months ago...

before that..

we were actually strangers with a thingy 'you're my ex's ex gf'..

but since we became friends..

haha..

didn't even talk about my ex at all..

guess it's a silent mutual understanding..

we just don't wish to talk about the past..

anyway..

she's nice..

loves most of the things i love..

and as cheerful and easy-going..

haha..

and who would have thought that we had such a 'connection'?

and i can't imagine the look on my ex's face if he finds out..

the world is just so small at times..

for example..

my best friend Grace actually has a best friend who's my polymate..

and Grace's cousin was once my another best friend's bf..but too bad..they broke off..

and one of my squadmate was my ex's ex gf's cousin..

and a few more that i can't remember..

the world's damn small..

we all live in it but yet..

there's just so much difficulty in finding that particular one that suits you and vice versa..

i am not saying it in a sense that the other person has to fit you like a key to a lock..

but it's just that people and things are often so twisted that things are so complicated..

it's like..

you like someone and he likes another person..

someone likes you and you do not like him back..

everyone likes other person and you do not..

everyone seems to be attached and you are not..

and when you are..

people are all breaking up..

this and that..

here and there..

so complicated..

even when i tell people that i am placing my career first before everything..

people always ask me..

'why?'...'want me to intro guys anot?'...'high expections ah you?'..

and then after beating round the stupid bush..

they would try to ask things like...'what happened to that guy you were with?'..'how come no more?'..

wah piang eh~

like being single at 23 is not common..

and people would always say..

women ultimately will get married one day...why work too hard?..relax la...women too hardworking no good..later stronger than your husband..

haiyoh..

this kind of thinking..

though it's a good thing being blissfully married and or even having someone by side..

it's just ain't on my mind for the time being..

i think i am at a good age to start enjoying life and being free to do whatever shitty stuff i have in mind..

no restrictions and stuff..

in fact...whenever i was in a relationship..

i would always spend time alone..be it shopping or playing..

no matter where and when..

one has to have time on their own..

to rejuvenise..relax and reflect..

in fact..i love time alone..

it's like being in your own time space..

no restrictions or plans or anything..

if like...then go ahead..

no questions or anything..

hmm...kind of late though..

i am having in-service class tomorrow..

so i am going off..

actually i came to blog as i was waiting for a 16mb file to be transferred to me in MSN but..

just as we were reaching the 1mb mark..

my friend got d/c..

don't know now whether to laugh or cry or sleep or worry..

this assignment has a deadline that i've gotta stick to..

or rather..we've got to stick to..

well..try again..

maybe can maybe not..

maybe i'll take a nap..

then when i wake up..it might be transferred already..

alright..nitezz people..

we shall continue the talk on singlehood and love and work and ex's another day...